THE ENERGY IS THE LIFE!


Recently I was asked by a close friend what my own personal thoughts on "god" and "life" are. He also asked if I follow a "religion". After some careful thought, I am writing this text in an attempt to clarify for him and anyone else my OWN thoughts, interpretations, and beliefs.

For many years now, I have studied all different types or belief systems as well as many, many different religions. I am unsure exactly why but I believe the reason was to grasp a better understanding of how people think, and why they become so obsessed over their own beliefs. It could be too, it was the fact that I started questioning the very religion that I was raised and taught as a child. Or possibly even that I started asking "why" and "how" rather than just blindly accepting the answer of "because", or "god did it". I started reading the many different versions of the Bible, the Qu'ran, the Torah, the Nag Hammadi, Native American beliefs, and many books on occult and mystical philosophy both "fact and fiction" dealing with the likes of wizardry, witchcraft, egyptology, voodoo, satanism, and many other beliefs and religious practices in general.

In all these beliefs I find one similar characteristic, one similarity..... they all seem to focus on a "greater power", something unseen. They call this power God, Jehova, Yeshua, Ra, Great Spirit, MANY different names, yet they all seem to be referencing the same being or force. So this led me to ask myself "Who is right?" or even if ANY are right, for are they not in actuality ALL the same force? The more I read, the more I desired to know.

I asked myself "Is there a god? Or when we die, is that truly the end?"

With the help of a very dear lady, Sylvana (((love and hugs to you, dearest friend))), I proceeded even farther on my road to personal enlightenment and knowledge. She taught me how to free my thoughts, to open my mind to possibility, to accept the fact that some things are unseen, unknown, yet still present and real. With her help and guidance, I started practicing a type of meditation, a freeing of my thoughts and mind in search of answers. It was not a bold forceful quest, but rather a passive relaxation, and simply blanking out my thoughts, relaxing, and allowing the thoughts and visions to come and go as they would.

So basically, here I am... sitting in silence, sitting in darkness, and simply relaxing and opening my mind to whatever may come my way. I sit surrounded in darkness, pitch black, no distractions, no light, the only sound being the stirring of the air by the ceiling fan, and the occasional bird that would chirp outside my window. At first, the time seems to drag on... nothing but darkness, several hours a day, and still nothing. This went on for a couple of weeks, and I thought, "Well, if nothing else, i've learned how to relax at least", because of the feeling that I had after I was done. I felt light, relaxed, as though the stress of everyday life had been lifted off my shoulders. When I sat there, the rest of the world didn't exist, it was only me and the darkness. I started noticing something odd though, it seemed these periods would become shorter and shorter, when in reality several hours would pass by in what seemed like an instant. In my mind, I would see flashes of light, swirling bodies of light without shape, like clouds in the sky. Dim, yet very present these lights would appear. Some would flash, briefly appearing then gone, back to darkness, while others would start out dark, and gradually build in intensity until almost a blinding brightness, a blue-white color, then they too would pass away. I'm thinking "What is all this about?", is there a meaning or reason? Or is it just that maybe i've been sleeping and having a dream?

I started gradually entering these meditative periods with a thought in the back of my mind, not focusing on it, yet allowing it to be present. I would think "What is life about? What is the purpose? Why are we here? WHAT am I? How did we come to be?" Again, these thoughts were allowed to pass through my mind freely, not dwelling on them, nor searching for the answers, but simply allowing them to enter and vanish as they would.

During one of these meditative states, something odd happened, this formless dull luminescence seemed to start forming in front of my eyes, but it didn't leave, it became brighter. It turned into a shape, still formless as an object, but definite in its presence. It looked like a swirling formation of gasses, a kind of cloudy shape. The light seemed to radiate outward from the center, or possibly INWARD towards the center, starting out as a bright glowing at the edges, and building to a blinding intensity in the middle. I find myself staring deeply within this light, as though wanting to know where it came from, when slowly I start seeing a shape forming from within it. It started as a speck in the middle, a black dot, yet more of a transparent color, like a shadow, and slowly began to build and increase in form while still being enveloped within the blinding light. I felt drawn towards it. I felt the need to see within, to see the other side. I felt the desire and need to know what this shape was, and why it was there.

The longer I sat there, (although it could have been only minutes or seconds even) the more pronounced this shape became, taking form. It appeared to turn into the very ball of blinding light in the center that I was looking at before but with a shadow within, a center so to speak. I started noticing too that there were smaller lights, like sparks that would seem to emerge from behind this light, coming forward, passing before my eyes and then disappearing back into the cloud behind this ball of light. Suddenly this image became intensely bright, radiating outward, and seemed to explode, fading again into total darkness. I was left sitting there with nothing but a shadow image, much like what you see when you look at a light or the sun, and close your eyes. Kind of like a negative image of the shape that was there, but unclear and fading now. This is when I awoke. I was left wondering if this was a dream, or was it more? Was this a sign? A doorway to my answers that I have so very much desired to know? I noticed as I looked at the time that what seemed like minutes had in fact been well over 4 hours that had passed. The sun had gone down, and there was darkness outside, peaceful and quiet.

I sat thinking about what had happened, what I had seen, and just as suddenly as this light had vanished in that flash, it came to me... what I had seen, this shape, was an atom. I had seen the core, bright and shining, with the bright sparks circling around it being the electrons that orbit the core. About now i'm asking myself "What in the hell is this all about? What does this have to do with anything?" Here I am sitting here wondering, looking for answers, and all I get is a science lesson... Geez!

Later that night, I talk to my friend Syl. She tells me not to focus on this happening, but to just put it out of my mind and the answer will appear in time. Reluctantly, I follow her advice and dismiss the thought to the back of my mind. I go back to reading a website on the Nag Hammadi that I had stumbled across a day or two earlier, when suddenly this thought hits me. I see the name Adam on my screen, and like a slap in the face, it comes to me. OF COURSE! THAT was what it was about! The story of creation, the first being... ADAM! I realize the source of our being, the source of our creation is in fact ENERGY! The ATOM! That which composes all things, that which surrounds us ALL! EVERYTHING is composed of these atoms! Is this the message that the bible was trying to convey?

Adam = Atom?

Then comes realization and enlightenment. This "Adam" is in reality "ATOM"!

The very energy of creation and composition! The "godsource" if you choose. Our very beginning in its most basic and purest form! This led to more realization, that in fact that which people call god is in fact the very energy of all things. ALL things are composed of this energy, and all are one, connected through this very energy. Through this common bond, all things also are a part of one another, sharing this common energy between us. Further, all things are a part of this energy, "god, if you so choose", and "god" (this energy) is in all things! ALL ARE ONE, just as one is a part of the ALL! The rocks, the trees, the animals, the people, in fact.. the very earth and sky itself are all intertwined through this energy, and part of each other.

While in different shape and form, they are all STILL the same energy!

"God and heaven is around us and within us..." in fact, this is true. We are all "god and heaven", as much a part, and within us and surrounding us as the very energy that is all things!

"Believe and you shall have everlasting life...." true too. Life is as eternal as the very energy that we are composed of. This energy takes physical shape at conception, and grows and gathers more energy from around us throughout life by the very magnetic attraction that is the property of this energy, forming and changing with every passing day. I have also realized that death is NOT the end. While we may lose this physical shape, the energy that composes us is still present. This energy may decompose from its physical form, and dissipate back into the whole of the energy that surrounds us, but it IS STILL PRESENT!

It may not be in the form we saw and knew, but it is still there and lives on beyond our death, and therefore, so too do we live on. Eternal life indeed!

This brings forth yet a further understanding, that through this energy, all are one. Therefore, with every action we make, we directly and indirectly effect all things and all others who surround us and co-inhabit this world we live in. What does this mean? Well, to put it simple, when you harm another, you in effect harm yourself and all the other beings in this universe, since they are all a part of the whole. This means when we steal from another, we also take from all as well as ourselves, with all feeling the effects of this action. You may think not, but it is true. Look around us, look at the state of the world today as compared to long ago. We live in a world of crime and hatred now, with laws and rules guiding our every step. This is the result of our own actions. Those that steal, kill, and commit other crimes have in fact effected us all, as well as themselves. When you take the time to really read the message behind the words in the bible as well as MANY other texts, both religious and philosophical, you find this common message appearing in virtually all of them.

This message: "Live and let live, treat others as you too wish to be treated".

Think before you act, because whether you realize it or not, it DOES effect you too! Try showing some compassion towards others for a change. Help those who desire help, and in turn help yourself and all things to create a better life and existence for the all collectively.

Can you imagine the result? What a beautiful and harmonious world this would be!

So now, you have seen within my thoughts. While you may or may not agree, these thoughts are truth for me. They are as individual to myself as the individual that I am. I hope in some way my thoughts may encourage you to seek and think about your own personal truth, and help you to also become enlightened to the real meaning of life that exists behind the obvious and within and between the written and spoken words you are so accustomed to seeing and hearing as you journey through the eternity of life as a part of the ALL!

In closing, I wish you one and all- "Peace, love and light!" Be well!


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